Still here...

I am still here folks! Just taking more breaks and slowing down. And to be honest just a little preoccupied. I have sat down so many times since last Thursday to write up a post and there is nothing there. I even took my cute school background down because I was bored with it and wanted a change. Still looking for a new one................

I have been doing lots of home projects.....painting and decorating.
And then my parents were here over the weekend. So I devoted that time to visiting with them. Then yesterday was a day to catch up on "stuff".

School is getting so close too! I have just about everything we need. Just a last minute shopping trip for a few supplies. And then planning our special 1st day.

I want to do so much, but I am waiting to get through tomorrow.

Ryan will go for a check-up and xray for his Infantile Scoliosis. This is a very important check-up since we took him out of the brace back in May.

Are we anxious? I AM!!!!
Do I want to go through this again? NO!!!
Will I freak out if he has to go back into that dang brace? YES!!!!!
Will I be a big girl and not let him see me cry? YES!!!
Does he know there is a chance he might have to go back in the brace? YES!!!
Is he OK with it? As OK as a 6 year old who HATES his brace can be!
Does he still wonder why God made him this way? Of course!

I had a Mom who also has a son with Progressive Infantile Scoliosis, ask me the other night on FB if it ever gets any easier going to an appt. Her son was going the next day for a check-up after being out of the brace for a while. I could not lie....I told her NO! It does not get any easier.

You still have that sick feeling deep down in your gut before the appointment, during the xray and waiting on the doctor to come in to tell you the results. You try not to get excited one way or the other. And when he tells you the results you either feel like you are walking on sunshine or someone just PUNCHED you in the gut!!!!!

I never go to an appointment with high expectations. I guess you could say I go feeling cautiously optimistic. And I am going to do the same tomorrow. His appointment is not until 2:30 so please no phone calls. With the appointment being that late, drive time back home and supper being very near, I will mentally be exhausted!  I'll update ASAP.

I will need that time to let it all sink in anyway......good or bad.

I promise to update my blog even if it is a one liner.

So you see I am still here just have lots on my mind right now.